Implausible 🦤 Immigrant 🇲🇺

Got assaulted by my landlady

A recording from Atiq Zabinski's live video

Feb 22 • Atiq Zabinski

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December 2025

Anti-Nostalgia

I had the odd thought that a place could seem like home if one had lived there in a prior incarnation. Was this in fact my first time on this road?

Dec 31, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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Transcript: Suicidal Ideation and My Mother's Legacy

I want to apologize to everybody who might be upset that I continue to return to suicidal ideation. I promise to do my best to keep at it, and let those…

Dec 7, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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Transcribed: Update from the Madhouse Where I Live

I felt very morally compromised in having anything to do with a venture that was likely to end in a man's death. I really did my best to persuade him…

Dec 2, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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November 2025

sugar cane field temple

A recording from Atiq Zabinski's live video (transcript in Comments)

Nov 25, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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sober day 90

Live from Butte a L'Herbe Beach. Hopefully the image quality is better than the preview I'm seeing. If not, I have some pics to upload.

Nov 17, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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jummah

In my loneliness and isolation it feels strange to ignore the adhan and the cool air drifting from inside the beautiful building where my fellows are…

Nov 15, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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the mirror

I feel sickened by the very question of survival. I may have recovered from the revulsion to food I experienced when I was still drugging in the USA…

Nov 15, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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impromptu live video

A recording from Atiq Zabinski's live video

Nov 13, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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connections

Its pale body is already bloated with water. An animal I have always loved, whose chirp sounded like a welcome back to the tropics. I can’t help but see…

Nov 1, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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October 2025

frying pans and the fire

It has been a theme of my life. I do not plan. I chase inspiration until it abandons me, and then I dally blindly in the doldrums. I let things happen…

Oct 28, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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no middle ground

I’m feeling depressed, bored of all these details in a journey that has lost inspiration and shows no sign of changing soon.

Oct 27, 2025 • Atiq Zabinski

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